No question about it. I am one of the world's worst bloggers. The holidays sort of overwhelmed me.
BUT I didn't turn to binge eating to soothe myself when things got a little hectic and I have some pretty amazing proof.
This is my California driver's license. It boasts a couple of inaccuracies.
- First, it says I am 5'9". That's not true. I think I am 5'8" or maybe 5'7 3/4".
- Second, it says I weigh 180 lbs.
That also is untrue. Because, as of today's Weight Watchers weigh-in, I weigh 178.8.
Exhibit B from today's eTools.
I don't think I've ever weighed what my driver's license says I weigh. Ever.
- When I was a 135 lb. 15-year-old, my driver's license said I weighed 120.
- When I was a 165 lb. 25-year-old, it read 140.
- And, sadly, when I was a 256 lb. 36-year-old, it said I weighed 180. (A difference of more than 75 lbs.)
And you know the best part? I am still super motivated and my driver's license is up for renewal in just 7 months! That means I should be at my goal weight by the time I get a new license and there will be no reason to lie.
Which brings me to what's evolved as one of the themes of this whole weight loss experience for me: no more lies to myself about how I am feeling, what I am feeling or who I am. I had a rough day this week. But instead of lying to myself about the fact that it was a rough day, I acknowledged it. I felt it. It sucked. I thought about soothing myself at Taco Bell. I thought again. I took action to address what was stressing me out. And, amazingly, I felt better. And I no longer wanted Nachos Bell Grande.
140 lb. goal weight, here I come. California DMV, here I come!