The reason for all this angst: I did another run yesterday. It was a 10-miler in Washington, DC -- The Cherry Blossom 10 Mile Run. And it was lovely. And if I were more like the amazing Bitch Cakes I would have brought a camera to show you some of the amazing sights on the course/in our nation's capital. You will have to take my word for it, but I will tell you about the top 3:
- Gorgeous cherry blossom trees in full-bloom dotted the course. Honestly, it was like looking at little cones of white cotton candy for 10 miles. Gorgeous.
- National landmarks (of course). Washington Monument. U.S. Capitol. The White House. I am a total nerd and I get really choked-up when I think about the generations of sacrifice that went into creating this amazing American experiment. Imagine: 15,000 runners -- almost 2/3 of them women -- running past these symbols of who we are as a nation, then moving forward. I know. Total dork. But I love being an American.
- My friends! I didn't enter this run solely because I'm a patriotic nerd. Many of my favorite people on the planet live in DC, so it was a great excuse to schedule a visit to see them. Among those friends is Glenn, who is my -- wait for it -- boyfriend. I know. It's totally weird to me, too. The last time I had a boyfriend, I was dying my hair black and trying to become a vampire or something. I also got to spend a lot of QT with my true love/hero/role model, Clayton, and with one of my closest friends on Earth, Kyle and his wonderful/amazing/wish-I'd-found-her-first wife, Sarah.
Here I am running to the finish line (That'e me with the aqua long sleeves and navy blue t-shirt... I picked up the pace quite a bit at the end)...
I'm comparing how I look now to how I looked after the Run Wild For A Child 10K in San Francisco back in November, which is the run that gave me the confidence to do this 10-miler and last weekend's half-marathon.
|April 3, 2011/169 lbs.|
|November 28, 2010/192 lbs.|
I finished yesterday's 10-miler in 1:42:04, which is a 10 minute 13 second mile. Yay me!
Further adding to the "who do I think I am?" mentality, I have enrolled in three more long runs: the Presidio 10-Mile Run on April 17, the See Jane Run Half-Marathon on June 5 & the SF Half-Marathon on July 31 (I've entered to run the 2nd half). I also plan to enter the raffle to participate in the Nike Women's Half Marathon in October (fingers crossed).
Excuse the broken record, but I just can't believe this is me. I'm not talking about the photos. I mean the everything. One year ago, I was pathetically lazy. I would wake up every morning and tell myself, "This is it. I am turning things around today!" But I had no real course of action, so I would skip meals until about 7pm, by which time I was starving, then I'd convince myself to abandon the half-hearted and unrealistic change to which I'd committed that morning and proceed to order take-out, eat the whole thing, then drive home from work at 12am and stop at a drive-through along the way for another huge portion of food. It is shocking how much I used to eat and how little I moved my body.
While the person I am today feels totally different from the person I was then, I still don't feel like the runner/athlete this blog makes it seem like I am. It's very weird, and I guess I'll need to work on reconciling who I was and who I'm becoming as parts of who I am now in order to really move on.
Trippy, huh? Told you I'm a dork.